life etc
1) i’m glad my schedule calls for no classes on friday. i only have three classes on tuesdays/thursdays but holy shit my classes then are terrifying. in a good way, of course, i love learning, but i don’t think my heart has ever beat SO fast just from listening to a lecture, looking through a textbook, or hearing some of my classmates speak. i don’t know, my hands got all clammy when i actually thought about my workload this semester. my classes don’t start until 11:10am on all days but i’m guessing i might as well continue waking up at 5:30am and dragging my ass to campus early since a) the new library is nice and b) it is impossible to focus at home
2) since i’ve started college i have witnessed…four public breakups? it just makes me wish i had someone with me to add commentary (or even better: subtitles) to. this guy was breaking up with his girlfriend next to a “dumping prohibited” sign, i lol’ed
3) just looking at the syllabus of my public speaking class makes me want to set everything on fire. the only thing preventing me from doing so is the fact that i’m learning valuable skills i’ll be using for the rest of my life…yes, it’s preventing me from whipping out my lighter, but barely. goddammit IMPROMPTU SPEECH UM NO
4) my ethics/literature class is wonderful and i am already drunk with ideas but i’m a little intimidated by other students in there since they’re, um, pretty brilliant. and 90% of them are best friends with each other and the professor. also, the course is orally driven, and you all know that my ideas can go from fan-fucking-tastic on paper to complete shit the moment i open my mouth. i’m going to see to it as a good thing that i have public speaking right before this class. it’ll be a nice warm up, hopefully.
5) i was BOMBARDED with inspiration on the train ride home and ugh all i want to
do right now is write but lol, my japanese. we had a quiz today and i know everyone wanted to cry because the moment we received them i heard a cluster of whispers ranging anywhere from “OH SHIT” to “WHAT THE HELL IS THIS” to “FUCK I DON’T REMEMBER OH GOD” to “is it too late to drop this class?”
6) got the rest of my novels/textbooks. these tears are both out of joy and terror
